i am lonely and sad and completely disheartened with just about everything. this afternoon, i stood at the window with the sun warming my hair. i couldn't bring myself to go outside. it felt like if i were to go outside alone today it would break my heart completely. it was day to share and love and laugh and play, not day to be quiet and shy, so i stayed in and did nothing except revel in my crushing solitude.
oh god, i'm so pathetic.
have you tried the usual?
-warm bath?
-good book?
-convincing yourself the world is a stupid place that doesnt recognize your unique specialness?
-waiting till tommorow and hoping a new day will be better?
-reading calvin and hobbes?
Especially the last thing. You could always ask someone to come over for a rousing game of CalvinBall.
*sob* i don't even have a bathtub! *whine*
It's definitely time to plan a vacation.
To lovely central Massachusetts would be a nice way to finish that sentence!
(And... for really depressing thoughts, imagine having that feeling with 3 other people in the house. *sigh*)
Big hug from Western Massachusetts. ;) Hope you feel better soon.