i'm not stalker-freaky

i'm not sure what the universe is trying to do to me, but first Jason comes over and i spend time with him for the first time in almost, if not, a year. then last night, i stop at the grocery store on my way home from the photography seminar deal and there's Tall Shane staring at the popcorn selection and we talked for near an hour (for the first time in well over six months) while wandering up and down the aisles. then, when i get home, Ohio Dan has sent me an email out of the complete and utter blue, having not had contact with him for at least two years. seriously, if Morgan, Paul or Jason1 start crawling out of my woodwork, i may just have to do something violent and potentially messy. i'm not sure if this is some sort of reminder from the universe that these are all men who were not good for me (for many and varied reasons), and it's trying to remind me of the things which didn't work in the past so i don't repeat my mistakes or what, but it's really kind of creepy. why are all these boys from my past coming back into my life just as i decide it's all about the boy who probably doesn't want me? oh, wait. i guess i already answered my question in that previous paragraph. then again, i don't know if the boy doesn't want me. we've never had that conversation... specifically. of course, part of me doesn't care if he does or not. it's just really nice to have this great fantasy life with him as the star and the fluttery tummy when i think about him. now i just sound stalker-freaky. i'm sorry. i'm not stalker-freaky, i promise. really.