as part of being sean this week, i get to injure myself on the job. yesterday, i forgot how heavy the big boxes on the pallet jack were and yanked them something fierce, causing myself a mild form of whiplash. today, i lifted some heavy things and i'm pretty sure i didn't use just my legs to do it. we'll see if my lower back is as tender tomorrow as my upper back is today. gee, it's a good thing they're paying me that extra $1.93/hour, huh?
i'm on the cusp of a serious hermit phase. i'm not answering emails, i'm avoidng the phone, i'm *this* close to cancelling any plans i have with people. i'm not really bloo, i just suddenly want to avoid the world. it started before the bad news i got yesterday morning, but that email certainly did nothing to encourage me to slap it down and keep on truckin'. before you go asking, it's not tragic news. my plans for sunday fell through due to scheduling issues and i'm upset about it.
i was really looking forward to seeing rick again (which does not come anywhere near close to doing justice to the actual feeling involved). it was probably going to be the last time i would get to see him, what with him living in arkansas and all. if it wasn't for all the 5-htp in my system, i probably would have cried a lot more than the few tears which rolled down my cheeks at 6:23 yesterday morning as i read the news. i suppose that's a good thing, lest people harangue me for being overly-emotional about something so trivial in the larger scheme of things.
there are things i want to write about, but don't know if i ever will. i've been thinking too hard about how to write well and when i do that it doesn't come out at all. it's a strange mix of writer's block and stage fright. this post was an exercise in just letting it flow. how'd i do?
wonderfully! i think you write very well, and i'm not just saying that because you're my friend.
i understand feeling bloo, so if you need to cancel upcoming plans, it's ok! i still heart you anyway.
Ya done good, kid.
Get better soon and just remember that you have people there for you no matter what you decide. We'll be there for you when you need us. Of course, I'd prefer it if you didn't turn your apartment into a hermitage... :)
As for your writing, my suggestion is to not worry about it unduly. Just as you have an "eye" for photography, you also have an "ear" for words (you also have some other bits I could mention, but I digress). I know that I love reading your blog because it comes across as natural and free-flowing...there's no artifice to it that I can tell. That's an increasingly rare quality these days.
So write about *everything*, if not for your blog readers, then at least for *yourself*. Putting your thoughts, however disjointed, into words will help you make sense of things and will offer you a different perspective on things you've been thinking about.
*hug*
i totally agree with that one!
if you wanna talk... we wanna listen. it's all good.
hugs your way.