June 2007 Archives

they say that one of the real tests of a relationship is when you travel together for the first time. seems christopher and i better study up because we're leaving for victoria tomorrow!

this'll be the first time we've ever gone away together. we'll be spending three days & nights in the capitol city and then heading up-island to visit his brother on the way up to parksville to spend a couple nights at my mom's -- oooh... scary (which must be read with a Count Floyd accent).

p.s. i know i've been really anti-communicative with people this week, so please consider this my far-sweeping apology. i took my first week of holidays solely for me (you should see how clean my apartment is!) and rejuvinating my mental health. i'm trying very hard not to feel guilty about it, but i know that there were a few phone calls or emails which should have been returned but weren't. once i get back from this trip, expect to be hounded for audiences with me! i want to party it up!!

this is the end of my second day off work (not including the weekend, obviously).

somehow, i've already managed to forget what day it is at least 50-million times and, sometime around 1:15 this afternoon, i was actually bored. on my second day of vacation. how sick am i? it's a good thing i have things to do tomorrow and i'm there's traveling next week and then the seven days of birthday celebrations the week after that. yes, very good.

what kind of things am i doing on my third day of vacation? well, tomorrow, i'm taking down my venetian blinds and driving them out to burquitlam to have them cleaned. yes, i know. i'm a wild woman. don't you wish you were me right now?

oh, wait. i won't be at work. yes, you totally do wish you were me right now (i'm so mean!).

despite the typo in the title, i'm beyond thrilled to have had a selection of my photos published on File Magazine today. go see!

what a fantastic way to start my 23 consecutive days off work!

after several weeks of trying to make it to my vacation in a ramped-up high-stress work environment, while also trying to be there for other people in my life, on top of attempting to maintain a social life and keeping my house in order both literally and figuratively, i completely lost it on friday.

first, i'd not gotten enough sleep a few nights in a row. then, i accidentally rammed a q-tip hard and deep into my left ear. on top of that, everything work related went sideways all while having to wear the shoes which give me horrendous foot pain. sometime around noon, i'd just had enough, so i closed my office door and started bawling.

i'd been feeling like i was being pulled in a dozen different directions for a couple of weeks. yet, i didn't want to disappoint anyone, so i tried so very hard to keep it all in balance, but obviously i was doing a very poor job of that. it had been building for a few days, that feeling of tension coiling up inside my chest waiting for a release. it was only a matter of time. i had hoped i could make it just one more week until i was off work.

luckily for me, both my boss and my boyfriend were so very comforting to me. my boss, who runs at peak stress 95% of the time, understands exactly how i was feeling at that time and commiserated with me while i calmed down and fanned my face to keep from crying any more. my boyfriend was right there for me, even though i wasn't even sure i wanted or needed it and i'm sure i made it very difficult for him to be there at all. he did everything right and for that i'm so grateful it makes me want to cry a little bit more.

everything is so very sensitive right now. i'm not quite over the hump, but, as i've been telling myself, vacation is only a week away. if i can make it to the end of next friday i should be okay. i really hope i'll be okay, because if it's not i don't quite know what i'm going to do.

just a reminder, you have only 30 days in which to plan, purchase and prepare all gifts and celebrations in honour of my upcoming natal anniversary.

yeah, i know. i'm all about the PSAs. ;)